Monday, November 14, 2011

IT'S BEEN AWHILE

Yup, it's me. It's been awhile since my last entry. How are you all? ;o)

Thank you for all the comments that you have left for me - - I have read them and I truly appreciate them. I am so sorry if I haven't responded to any of your mails (I haven't had the courage to sort through my inbox!!!), I have no excuse except I thought I had to keep to myself.

I am okay, I am holding up and I do miss being creative. A lot has happened since I buried myself in my rabbit hole, but this is one piece of realization that I am most excited and happy about: I will definitely go back to my crazy-scrapbooker self (slowly but surely!!!).

Now that I have the courage to write this entry, I suddenly felt scared: do I still know how to scrapbook? I don't know, I'll find out within the week as I want to do something with my Bella Blvd stuff. I haven't touched any of my papers since my last layout (featured in the post below); my camera got neglected; I haven't updated my facebook account; haven't accessed my yahoo account (my inbox has more than 4,000 unread emails!!!). In five months, my family has grown bigger (we got an additional mini-schnauzer and a German Shepherd - - we have 4 dogs now!!!), my kids have grown super fast (wait 'til you see them!!!), I myself have grown and aged a bit (haha!!!!).

Another question: what will I scrapbook? Let's see - - my dilemma before was that my topics/subjects were too personal for my own good (well, that's the reluctant me speaking) - - I thought I was sharing too much and I just couldn't blur or hide my captions/journaling as I felt that would compromise my art (and I couldn't reconcile that with me being on several DTs). I am still struggling with that right now, but I have come to terms that I need an outlet to get over my relapse. The experience to get out of the dark and face everyone is daunting and humbling...

I guess, I just have to focus on happier things... like breathing... like writing on this blog... like being back...

Hope you all have a happy day.

janis

10 comments:

TeenaBugg38 said...

Awww hugs!!! I think we all go thru this.....one day you will be happy you scrapped even the personal and "bad stuff" It's real and its life....and life isn't always pretty but it goes on right?? And even tho it vcan digb up some long buried feeling and emotions and make them kinda raw and feels like rubbing salt into a wound, thats how we heal. Just remember, without pain we can't truly experience joy! Hope you feel better soon, some of us do miss your layouts and blog updates!!!

lisa said...

Hey Janis,
You are one of the most talented srappers I know. I hope you feel better about everything soon and start creating once again. The scrapbooking world NEEDS you : )
Lots of love
lisa xx

Julie Tucker-Wolek said...

Sorry to hear that you have been struggling... {{{hugs}}}

Dara Lynn said...

Welcome back girlie:)

isay said...

hi janis, it's good to see back at blogging. whatever it is that you are going through will eventually pass. everything happens for a reason. i will keep youand your family in my prayers. have a wonderful day.God bless.

hugs,
isay

Sabrina said...

Scrapping is the cheapest therapy and I know you know it works, Janis! Hope you are doing good there. Take care, ya!

Love,
Sabrina

Vicky Alberto said...

Relieved to hear from you - thinking of you!

Lovez' Lao said...

Hi Janis!

Nice to see you come out of your shell again! I missed your layouts (which I scraplift most of the time, LOL)... I won't see you more frequently at TEC anymore 'coz we already moved out and transferred to BGC.

Everything's gonna be alright...

Love lots,
Lovez'

Jona Panesa said...

welcome back!!!!

Luz Maria Bruna said...

Hi dear Janis,glad to know about you and see that you´re right!!! We missed you at Bo Bunny!!!
Hugs!
Luzma

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